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.daC.
01 Nov
coke light
dead cockroaches
slow rock
Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Dearest,

To think that i was at fault in the r/ship, that i didnt know how to appreciate him, nor do i ever made him happy.. eventually the truth surfaced right before me.

We broke up. Yes we did. That was 3 wks ago. And the hurt i felt then can never be compared to what i'm feeling now as i learn the truth, 3 weeks later.

I never saw this coming. He, whom i honestly appreciated and looked upon for advice.. lied his way through. I thought walking straight and think less was the best antidote in life. But then i forgot to turn back and look at what is really happening behind me. This shall be hard. Though i shall not let this prevent me from happiness that has yet to greet me with open arms.

Mom's leaving soon. I smile as i think about how happy she is about this overseas posting, but i can't seem to stop my heart from crying. I've never wanted her to know how i feel. Bet its gonna take a while for me as i'll keep her in my prayers always. For she has given me so much strength to go through this and I'm glad she's here now to help me out. That's some love i'd never trade anything for. To my beloved friends who knew about this, thank you for being there to hear me. I greatly appreciate it.

As i have always believed, there's a reason to everything. I'm still finding out why did this happened. And why wouldnt he tell me the truth. Then again, we know truth hurts. But having to find out the truth on my own, i can never explain how i felt.

He apologises. I said "you dont have to". Someone, somewhere.. might be feeling hurt, the same way as i am right now. Guess we have to keep on walking for now. Hopefully things will be better for me as i leave this chapter behind.

Huda..