it IS four in the morning.

No. I dont have sleeping problems. in fact i sleep pretty early these days. today at around 1030, after gettin off the phone with a certain someone, my sister insisted that i be her human manequin to prepare herself for the Bed-Bathing practical tmr.

Since she's been involved in her CCA quite alot, she's gotten quite tanned and its sure not helping her self-confidence at times whenever she looked at herself in the mirror and i happen to be lookin at the same mirror at the pt. lol* but heck! she's gorgeous already. no doubt abt that.

Anyways, after 3 rounds of Bed-Bathing (all of which i had to pretend that i'm a patient, for real) i pretended to be one of those ignorant and cranky patient, who refuses to get up, shuts both eyes when the 'nurse' is talkin or askin questions and play dead. should see the look on her face when she gets frustrated. haha.

so after the third round, i searched for my pillow... and with a twitch of the nose, i escaped to the magical land of dreams. uh-huh. i woke up at 330 to realise that i'm still in my work clothes. and my eyeballs start to do the tango.. quickly i got up, wash my face, painfully remove my contact lenses, showered and did my prayers. hmmm...

now i'm waiting for a few more minutes before surrendering myself to the other world.

i think i'm gettin sick. my throat's all parched and rough, despite lubricating it with water. and now, my nose is feelin it. hopefully i dont get any worst than perhaps a normal flu. but then again, after all that heartache its about time i see the doctor.

as for matters of MY heart, i hope everything will heal soon. i'm still accepting the fact that:-
(i) people change and theres nothing i can do abt it;
(ii) never to expect anything in life;
(iii) life is not all that sad if i were to leave my emotions aside and think;
(iv) nobody is perfect for i am hardly perfect; and
(iv) i'm very much single.