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.daC.
01 Nov
coke light
dead cockroaches
slow rock
Friday, May 16, 2008
not worth it


that feeling - the numbness, the hatred, the despair and a tiny weeny bit of love if there is ever such a thing in this world i'm in.

all of that is in me now. like it or not, i have to live with it. i have to move on with my life.

its been 2 weeks, since our last conversation. and it is for this past couple of weeks i've watched that ugly side of me grow helplessly. all because of love. all that anniversaries together, being there for him everyday, waiting for his calls every other hour. it was an amazing 2 years plus relationship, that, i can't deny. In fact it has always been a wonder to me, that i'm constantly falling in love with him throughout the years. it was pretty surreal.. yet memorable and sweet.

he promised me once and a few more times. that we'll get married someday. and it got me dreaming about working towards that special day, whenever that might be. all i know is, it made me happy just thinking about it..

so what is it now..

Yes... in the name of love, he went on with someone else.

his final words to me.. "i cheated on you. we have to go our separate ways huda. and i'm sorry."

amazing aint it..

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