Friday, July 29, 2005
+ HELLO PANDA
And so the first 3 groups have already step foot on the soil of HONG KONG. (*Grrr...) And i'm very much at my desk drinkin water and squeezing every juice left in my brain to finish my draft. So exciting.. Oh but to note. I spent ALOT LA SIALZ! just for this HKG trip. sigh~ God know's whats gonna happen to me tmr, the moment my eyes starts doing the Awin. I changed Sing Dollars 500, which is equal to some 2,330 HKG dollars. Money Money Money. You're so funny. (yes. i do not know the lyrics) Anyways, can't wait!! (pulls ears!) The cheong sam. The high heeled silver shoes. The silverish-shiny hair pins. BUAHAHAHA. *ahem*The remaining drewnapierers (including myself) are workin. Some surfing the net but pretend to be busy. While others had faulty bowels. (excluding myself) Kept looking at the computer clock. I'll be havin a quick dance practice with the babes again at 530 till abt 615. Hopefully. Later i gotta go get some DIE DIE MUST BUY necessaries. OH!! one of the interns just let me have a taste of Soya Bean ice-cream. VERYYY THE LOOOVE!!! (*doing the Awin) VERY THE!! Oh. Just got a report. Its raining in HKG!! @!%^$#^%!! probably for the next couple of days. sigh~ now i've got to either buy a sweatshirt or buy a sweatshirt. sigh~MONEY MONEY MONEY. You're so funny la.
Monday, July 25, 2005
+ Notes
Yup its been a while since i last scribbled. The good comp is under construction so i've got to settle for the project comp i.e. my computer. So i'm just hoping that this baby here just dont freeze on me while i'm typing this out.
Got home like around 930 today. geezness. all in the name of dancing. practice over practice. hopefully it'll turn out good this saturday. eekk!! be flying off in 4 days time!! sooo excited. this time around my weekend's gonna be all awesomely planned! unlike other weekends for sure. *snorts* most of my close buddies were caught up in a 12 hr straight meeting and another was busy shifting his things to his new room. hence, minus the number of persons to pester. the dancers werent exactly on time for practice cos they've got some funky assignments to settle. sigh~ this definitely depreciates the level of anxiety in me of becoming a flashysmashy lawyer. literally working non-stop like nobody's business. Unlike other professions, being a lawyer is a super demanding job. you have to loooove to work 24hrs straight. you have to enjoyyyy being pushed. you have to thiiiiink of the boss everyday & night. sheeish. damn tiring when i come to think of it. makes u wanna chew on the companies act and spit it out in parliament.
anyhows, as soon as the good pc's back in shape, i shall post some pics up from the scene at the airport last saturday. had fun with my cousin around. blardy cute boy. kept hugging and kissing me for no reason. how'd mom go? she went well. i hope she'll do fine at work. the departing scene wasnt as horrendous as the first time. so it was all good, i guess. nizam was there to send her off too. (thanks zam. really appreciate that) and my dad gone bonkers. haha..
mom called home the moment she reached her apartment. spoke to dad. said she's all good. dad's all good too. and i'm glad =)
Friday, July 22, 2005
+ it takes time
time has been on a fast treadmill. Moving ever so quickly, mom is leavin Singapore tomorrow evening! geez. and all i did was i had to work 9 - 6 this whole week. But i'm glad dad's around to watch over her.*blessed* She's indeed upset over the fact that she'll be leavin tmr. all i could advice her on is that, she treat all thats happened like some sort of a blessing in disguise. that things happen for a reason. that sometimes we have to follow what is before us and no point turning back. that we learn from all this and try to rearrange the perfect puzzle together. true enough, the family has gotten closer since mom left, and love has been floatin all over since mom's return. i certainly hope that the family shall move at this pace forever..
many crazy events took place in my life thus far. from numerous fun & laughters shared to tonnes of sadness i have to endure. i've learnt alot from first half of the yr. how my level of patience have been tested. how i've tried to live by the day, and putting my problems aside whenever possible. its hard having to control your own emotions with no one to back you up on it, since mom has always been there for me previously. Alhamdulillah, all goes well for me. knowing that i come home to a good family and parents who are really there to give all they could. its halfway before 2005 comes to an end. wonder what challenges have i yet to go through for this coming 2nd half. though life can be full of fake smiles, sometimes it really doesnt take that much to be happy and start loving again. i'm hopeful.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
+ Meow me
Managed to finish up on my research earlier today. Phew~ Glad that went well.. It was close to 5pm and another half an hr to go before i jiggy my way home. But before that, I was busy reading up on interesting articles online. Till a particular article caught my fullest attention..
It reads...
What's the deal with "Cat Ladies"??
A Virginia judge declared on Monday that 82-year-old Ruth Knueven is unfit to own pets, after animal-control officers seized her 488 cats. Local law enforcement and animal-control officials say they found 120 cats in her house in 2001 and that they've discovered several other cat hoarders in the area over the past year. What's the deal with "cat ladies"? Not all animal hoarders are cat ladies, but most are. The typical person who gets caught with more pets than she can handle is a woman over the age of 60 who lives alone. Experts say there are a handful of animal-hoarding cases per 100,000 Americans each year, which translates to a few thousand incidents annually.
*Bites toenail*
In the name of beefsticks!! Will i be a Cat Lady!!? NoooOOOO!!!...... I seriously hope i dont end up a virgin at 60, stayin in a one room flat at Bedok, with tonnes of cats to fill up the spaces in the room.. Now, if that EVER happens... i would like to make a request. To my dear friends (you know who u are) please let your kids / grandchildren come pay me a visit at least once a week? Can?! I know i can count on u guys! Love ya'll!! =)
Sunday, July 17, 2005
+ A day at the Grands'
Top left: Me and the greatest lady in my life, Grandma.
Bottom left: Me and er... the guy who ignores my presence, my Brother.
Right: A mug shot of the patients high on antibiotics. thats me, idra and dad. sigh~
The One who gives me the strength i'll ever need. My Mom.
+ Runaway
I look hard at myself in the mirror.. Why do i look so restless.I find myself sighing for the countless times. I just dont know why.
Tried eating alot. To not feel the stress if thats what they call it. The food's not helping.
Is this a gd time to drown my sorrows by drinking / smoking?
Life is indeed full of questions.
All have yet to be answered.
See, my heart's not at ease at all. Something's troubling me bad.
I'm sooo good at putting pressure on myself, a forte i've long lived with.
Cant wait to walk ahead.
Away from this unnecessary commotion.
Stop thinking at all.
And pretend that i'm a human minus the emotions.
Wish my heart could grow cold.
And stop searching for hope.
But damn its tough, i cant run away from myself.
Only time will heal this fresh wound i hold.
Saturday, July 16, 2005
+ Mango Tango
"But i'd rather you be mean
Than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth
And have to say goodbye
I'd rather take the blow
At least than i will know
But baby dont you break my heart slow" - by Vonda Shepard
What a song. Loving it since forever. Songs like this makes my heart cringe to the fullest, and no doubt the emotions go haywire. Hrmm.. its been a while since i got my heart broken. Wonder when's the next ride...
Anyways, went out with my mom and idra earlier. Had dinner at siam kitchen. absolutely fabulous food yet again. then i met this guy at isetan. a really, ermm.. how'd i say this.. gd looking guy la, senang cakap. sigh~ i hate it when he just dont know how to say "Hi". i mean quit doing that "ouhh.. i think i shall go over and walk near her, but dont do anything la.."
my mom wasnt around me when that happened. When we were nonshyly checking each other out in a distance, smiling at each other through the clothes, out of the not-so-blue sky, my mom appeared from the corners of levis. "eh She!!" my mom called.
She?!! what She!?!!
Then mom said that she saw that thing me and that fella was doing. that sec school flirting shit. haha.. she didnt wanna call me by my name cos she didnt want the guy to know my name and ended up calling me She instead.
Sheessssh!!! was all i said to her.
Mom said, "You're welcome"
Damn that was some cheap thrill. havent had that for awhile.
The sisters again...
Friday, July 15, 2005
+ Memory Bliss
Yup its 215am. I'm still awake. Well i have to. Gotta do a rushy spring cleaning. Mom's coming home today, for a week's stay. Her arrival's at 550am. So i shall wait till 5, then grab a cab and swing by Starbucks for a cafe macchiatto.*yawns* Just finished the ironing, changing the cushion covers, yet to do the dishes, er.. arrange the dressing table. err.. yah n so on. I'd probably call Irene tomorrow, take half day morning leave or smth. Otherwise i'd look undeniably groggy. ok its 220am now. another... 3 hrs to go before i get changed & leave the house.
Anyways, met up with the gurrrlss~ earlier, together with asree & iman, for dinner at swensens in celebration of Awin's birthday! the food's good, i guess. the chicken on my plate looked plastic. But nothing beats the deliciousness of ice water. heaven~It was almost 9. We jumped in the car and head down to east coast. geee.. that place sure brings back looooads of memories! from the sec1 barbeque mom refuses to let me go but had no choice, to ang moh chasings and err.. spending time staring at the waves... and breeze. We had some nice chat there together, paying close attention to Awin's crazy antics. my lower back's giving me problems quite abit then.. and its coming back alittle when i did my prayers just now.. gossh!~ Talkn abt back probs... Asree, u better do smth abt yours, babe. you're making me worried sick!
Awin left slightly earlier, around 10 sm'n. The four of us stayed till about 11, chatting about how life being single is damaging our mental stability and ruining our sense of humor. Ohhhh... well. I had a great time today. Simple and nice. That's how i like things to be.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
+ Hold me now
Nothing could be as traumatic as yesterday's final episode of desperate housewives. Talked to D abt it just now. Got hyper emotional. All i could ever think of from that last episode was "Mike's Dead." Shit. D then pointed out the obvious. Zack killed his read DAD! Delfino's the father. Stupid chic-on-rehab-who-gave-DANA-away, Deirdra. Well that was sad. to finally come to terms that my monday nights are never gonna be as sweet as it used to. Sigh~ Anyhows, yesterday i got home at around 9pm. I had dance practice. Yah. Ok. And the best part is, its chinese dance. Yup, dot dot dot. I'll be one of the performers from Corp Dept who'll be doing an item for the firm's D&D. Theme: Chinoiserie. Yah. So that explains the extreme culture shock i experienced the moment i heard the songs we'll be swayin our booties to. Ok initially right, when one of the performers began showing me the steps to the song, im like, ok this shouldnt be so bad. Side steps, box steps, samba steps and yah props that make u have a bad impersonation of Big Bird. Yah, feathery props. Nice. *sneezes* Nevermind. so it was all good. Not until Yuet Min, our choreographer (she's damn good la sialz!) came in, flipped open her laptop and blast the music. Never in my entire 20 yrs of drinking Evian and yah, mother's milk have i felt sooooo munjenfied! After the whole practice, i forgot how to pronounce my name.
OK despite all that fuss going thru my head, it was fun la. Its like gettin into the culture i had never thought i could (unless of course i get hooked up to a sexy James Lye lah, hopefully). Yup part of me is excited that i'm gonnnaa boogie~ another well, lets just say, i'm already a naturally shy person.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Happy 22nd Girrrrlfriend!!!
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Luther Vandross Dead at 54 Grammy-winning soul singer and songwriter Luther Vandross, who suffered a serious stroke two years ago as he was about to relaunch his career, died on Friday in a New Jersey hospital, officials said. He was 54.
*May he rest in peace*
Friday, July 08, 2005
+ Catastrophic
LONDON - Four blasts rocked the London subway and tore open a packed double-decker bus during the morning rush hour Thursday, sending bloodied victims fleeing in the worst attack on London since World War II.
The four explosions went off within an hour, beginning at 8:51 a.m. local time, and hit three subway stations and the double-decker bus. Authorities immediately shut down the subway and bus lines that log 8.4 million passenger trips every weekday.
Thirty-seven people were confirmed killed, and more than 700 were wounded in the terror attacks, which a shaken Prime Minister Tony Blair called "barbaric" and blamed on Islamic militants.
Now this.. is gettin more and more terrifying. I cant help but hold my breath hard and let the fear surge through me when dip told me abt this. Was it just yesterday London had celebrated their winning of hosting 2012 Olympics? Goshh.. I'm scared. Indeed, its something that we can never predict, let alone to understand why it had to happen. My answer: only God knows why.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
+ Crashed my car. Gone insane.
Mom asked me yesterday over the phone. What have i been up to? (apart from work i.e.) i just told her things have been the same. except that this time around i'm spending more time watching over dad and ensuring that my sis get to bed by 10pm (except for monday nights). She also asked if i am already attached. I whined "NO...." And like how mothers would advice their children on matters as such, she said "its ok laa... the right one will come one day. hopefully." Told her about the butterfly story. Ouh! let me share with u abt the butterfly story! Ok it started out when i happen to be talking to my sec school friend as of late. Exchanging stories about our lives since the last time we talked. During our conversation, he asked me this interesting qn. "Dac, have u been seeing a big butterfly/moth around?" I said no. But later on i realised that i did saw one earlier that day, fluttering in front of my doorstep. Really big can!? i got freaked out, afraid it might land on my scalp and breed caterpillers there! But i ignored its presence.
I got reminded of it again when my dear friend, asree, asked me the same qn. I said ok this is gettin alil freaky, but i think this whole seeing big butterfly frenzy would probably due to the season? Funny thing is on my way up to my house that same day after talking to asree about it, i saw it again! (*AHHH!!!) On one of the steps leading to my house. I almost collapse sideways, and my sis asked whether i saw a ghost. Asked mom and dad. they both said the same thing. Its july. butterflies flutter aimlessly in July. I guess i must have not noticed the past yr's Julys then. Wonder what have i been up to in the past Julys.
I checked with my colleague on this as well. She told me that its a sign. When one sees a big butterfly, it simply means that someone's gonna walk up to her and propose! hahah... weee.. its about time i see some weird action going around me! When she told me that, i kept humming to the wedding tunes, gleeing to myself and smiling at a piece of white paper. From her expression, i can safely deduce that she's officially the 105th person to certify me a NUTCASE.
I got reminded of it again when my dear friend, asree, asked me the same qn. I said ok this is gettin alil freaky, but i think this whole seeing big butterfly frenzy would probably due to the season? Funny thing is on my way up to my house that same day after talking to asree about it, i saw it again! (*AHHH!!!) On one of the steps leading to my house. I almost collapse sideways, and my sis asked whether i saw a ghost. Asked mom and dad. they both said the same thing. Its july. butterflies flutter aimlessly in July. I guess i must have not noticed the past yr's Julys then. Wonder what have i been up to in the past Julys.
I checked with my colleague on this as well. She told me that its a sign. When one sees a big butterfly, it simply means that someone's gonna walk up to her and propose! hahah... weee.. its about time i see some weird action going around me! When she told me that, i kept humming to the wedding tunes, gleeing to myself and smiling at a piece of white paper. From her expression, i can safely deduce that she's officially the 105th person to certify me a NUTCASE.
Sunday, July 03, 2005
+ White Castle
We're all glad to have that special someone in our lives. Someone we can make fun of and at the same time to lean on when the backbone's at the repairs. Differentiating the good from the okay bunch. Good friends are those who can tell u that u look atrocious in that outfit but you dont feel upset in any possible way that he/she said so. I learned alot abt myself through my good friends, as it seems that they know me pretty well. I do have tonnes of flaws which i may not realise until they share it with me, and through the courtesy of them tt i'm perpetually learning new things about myself everyday, whether they're good or bad ;)
So ok ZARA's havin SALE now!! I dunno, maybe its the space that the crowd wasn't as hectic and horrendous as the crowd at Mango when i stepped in last Friday. Saw tooo many things that i simply adore, but i ended up feeling tooo tired to try 'em on and left with nothing. *Pats my back* Lately since the GSS started, i've played by the rules of "It is because of the SALE that makes u buy things which u dont need" Actually another reminder for me is to save up for once! haha.
D, i'm still thinkin about that spannking hawwt~ male specimen we oogled at the other time. In the name of Wasabe!, that's some delicious whipped cream alright. (hummmmm.....)
Anyways, i stayed in on Saturday. wanted to ask that lady, Dionne out but was informed by dad that he'll be working night shift and had to cancel plans. so i spent my saturday, eating ALOT and sleep. Wake up, wash up. Eat ALOT. Sleep. woooot!!~ I love it. Lifestyle of the lost royalness.
Anyways, i stayed in on Saturday. wanted to ask that lady, Dionne out but was informed by dad that he'll be working night shift and had to cancel plans. so i spent my saturday, eating ALOT and sleep. Wake up, wash up. Eat ALOT. Sleep. woooot!!~ I love it. Lifestyle of the lost royalness.
So its Sunday. Wonder what i'm gonna do today. Don't know if leaving the house is an option, seeing that the weather will cause me to loose 20kg if i do so. I shall wait then.
Friday, July 01, 2005
+ Embrace the essence of your Spirit
It was just another gd friday at the Drew & Napier Corporate Dept. 2 paralegals seated at funky ends of the 17th floor were seen lookin ultra busy with their work load. Starring: Melissa Tan & QD (a.k.a Hawwwt~ Corporate Paralegals)
PART 1
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:19AM >>>
u busy? i've picked my nose like a hundred times now.
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:21:17 AM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:21:17 AM >>>
WHAT?????????????????????
I sincerely hope you are just joking to gross me out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:23AM >>>
I sincerely hope you are just joking to gross me out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:23AM >>>
errr.... that depends. ;)
anyways, im sleepy. dont know why im tellin u this, but i heard from my teacher back in primary sch, that we should share our problems with others.
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:24:06 AM >>>
anyways, im sleepy. dont know why im tellin u this, but i heard from my teacher back in primary sch, that we should share our problems with others.
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:24:06 AM >>>
true share but sometimes if sharing means you gross the other person out, then....DON"T SHARE!!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:25AM >>>
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:25AM >>>
ok i think she missed out on tellin us that bit. sigh~ teachers.wonder what we learn from them.
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:26:38 AM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:26:38 AM >>>
obviously the WRONG darn thing!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:27AM >>>
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:27AM >>>
ok. is it just me or are your maternal hormones raging more than the usual??
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:29:02 AM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:29:02 AM >>>
no i am feeling rather hot and irritatable unfortunately.
doing a stupid bible which has 30 volumes!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:30AM >>>
doing a stupid bible which has 30 volumes!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:30AM >>>
oh i've to do up a bible too. just that its on hold for now.. er.. ok hope that made u feel better.
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:31:44 AM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:31:44 AM >>>
err....no sorri...not really.
i am so glad its fri. i need SLEEP!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:33AM >>>
i am so glad its fri. i need SLEEP!!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:33AM >>>
YUH!! me too!! i woke up at 620. showered. and stuff. put on my tshirt and shorts. did abit of housework. and fell asleep on the sofa. woke up close to 8.
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:35:33 AM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:35:33 AM >>>
sheish.....thats a lot for 1 morning!!
u must be buggered!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:36AM >>>
u must be buggered!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 10:36AM >>>
yahh i soooo wanted to just not come in to work today. w/o a reason. just wanna sleep!!
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:37:35 AM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 10:37:35 AM >>>
to me that is a reason!@!!
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:03PM >>>
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:03PM >>>
yawwwnnz~
*burp* (ok it tasted like fish)
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:15:35 AM >>>
*burp* (ok it tasted like fish)
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:15:35 AM >>>
gross!!!
PART 2
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:43PM >>>
PART 2
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:43PM >>>
can i ask u smth..?
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:43:52 PM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:43:52 PM >>>
is it X rated again?
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:45PM >>>
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:45PM >>>
tt depends if u look at it in a different angle.
qn: do u shit as per normal when you're pregnant?
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:47:52 PM >>>
qn: do u shit as per normal when you're pregnant?
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:47:52 PM >>>
hahhaah...no. towards the end you experience constipation. very uncomfortable.
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:48PM >>>
>>> Qamarulhuda Bte Daud 1/07/05 12:48PM >>>
hmm.. ok.how'd u know if its shit sliding down / baby peeking?
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:49:58 PM >>>
>>> Melissa Tan 1/07/05 12:49:58 PM >>>
oh, apparently you don't. which is why they give you something to clear your system just before so that you don't have any "accidents". according to Gwen (former convenyancing lawyer at Drew), being in labour makes you feel like you need to shit.