boo.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

+ two thousand five with love

another year has jiffily come to an end. summing up on 2005, in my honest opinion is the most mindtwisting, heartstomping, bodyjiggling and ductpouring year so far. the waves of tsunami may have caused severe destruction to the affected countries, leaving the remaining to feel emotionally affected, homeless, penniless and the effect of losing the comfort zone they're once in. crashing of the tsunami..was that the beginning of a hectic 2005, i questioned myself.

this time last year... i was contented. really am. in a short span of time, i had everything i never imagined myself to have and feel. my loved ones are all in good health. everyone i know is happy. when 2005 came, i swear i had hoped for another brand new beautiful year.

...and it truly was.

the year that made me realise the real person in me. painfully exposed many of my weaknesses. to appreciate the small little things that brings happiness to my sadness. the rights and wrongs i've grown to follow. with the people i love being away, the men in my life: dad & my 2 granddads struggling to keep up with their lives through their sickness, seeing my best friends fighting through tears of relationships... got me stronger. i've understood how things hardly comeby the way we want it to. that i should not worry abt me in 2010, but to live today as though it WILL be the last one. i'm still learning the ropes of love and life. hopefully i'd be given the chance to, as tomorrow begins.

they say a picture says a thousand words. i'll let my pictures do the talking.

au voir~ 2005. and thank you.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

~ Ant & Dec ~

some pure coincidence that is aye? me and ann... who'd have thought our names (to be said together) was ever made famous in the radio airwaves of the united kingdom, asia (that includes singapore) when the english duo, ANT & DEC started a scene after hitting the charts with one of their sappyfied gayish single - Eternal Love. Remember those two?

allow me.

"i give you my looooove. an eternal lovee.. from me too you...if you return, a token of love.. an eternal looove.. from you to me.. i give my loove"

damn. thats eeoons old sia! haha.

anyways... back from the 80s *snorts* as i was saying... i seriously feel that ann is the older (but wiser) version of me! really. she admits that herself! go ask her. went shopping with her today. and yesss.. we did the paris hilton again... (minus the blondeness and expensive boutiques) and we shopped all over far east.. the many things that she does, even the way she thinks... resembles ...ME! REALLY! she disliked me back then when i was still on attachment at drew and also when she got to know of my first days of working life early last yr. her claim was that 'huda's so stuck up!" well actually i'm 'stuck' somewhere else though. haha.. but now.. we're like sworn sisters. sheesh weird.

Cool? A bit.

Scary? ALOT!

look at the great deal of damage she has done to me. thanks to her:-

i) my hair's straightened
ii) my eyes turned hazel
iii) i nonchalently giggle in public
iv) i'm spoiled by her feeding me with all sorts of cakes from coffeebean / tcc
v) i start whining.

no doubt, i think she's hawwt. i hate her height but i love everything else about her. good confidante, excellent bitching partner, sensual lover (not to me ok! to her bf ah!) she patiently endures my daily dosage of kindergarten behaviour at work (applause please!), a psychotic laughing machine who'd lean against you for tremendous support whenever she laughs and the best lepak partner ever!

our fav drink: vanilla latte (coffeebean ONLY)
our fav lunch: macaroni soup (encekkk macaroni ader, ceekk?!)
our fav snack: anything from TCC
our fav hobby: daydreaming

yah. see. all same. tsk.

scary mary.

Monday, December 26, 2005

+ ATTENTION PLEASE +

i seriously think the government should consider Monday as part of a 'weekend'. in the name of avoiding monday blues... i think they ought to pass a bill proposing the idea of having Mondays an official off day for the majority who religiously abide to an office hr routine. trust me the singapore economy will bloom to be on par with the greatest from other continents or even better! everybody will be as equally productive in their respective profession and people, like myself, WILL for sure look forward to going to work on the Tuesday.

shweeet~

*clears throat*

"CALLING ALL THOSE WHO ARE PLANNING TO ATTEND THE BACKSTREET BOYS CONCERT ON THE 24TH !!"

Is there anybody else who seconds the idea of attending a backstreet boys concert?!! SHOULD I FORSAKE my SGD 160.00 for nick carter?!!

help.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

+ YEssssss AH!

so i FINALLY! pinched my lazy ass yesterday to get up and register for my basic. yah.. i dont know why i prolong the idea when that place is only 3 stops away from my house. pffftt! anyways, i'm pleased with myself. ha-ha. met up with my beeeeauutiful girlfriend, dayana yesterday. she looked hawwt in YELLOW! (and i'm sorry abt being 'rather' punctual. there really was a reindeer lying in the middle of the road!! SEE-RYE-OUS!) lol* met up with her friend, khairul..interesting dude with a fascinating laughter. and my friend, Hanafi.. who appeared to be alittle irritating than his usual, arrived MUCH MUCH later.. he had issues with dee throughout the entire time and thats fiiine entertainment for me! lol*

we had a real quick dinner.. then walked like lost souls who hardly know where we're heading to. finally i whined.. and begged for either a starbucks' green tea frepp / coffeebean's chai tea.. so our leader.. *ahem* ms dayana (an inside joke btween me and hanafi) decided that we head down to boat quay's coffeebean. later asree with his smirk and helmet.. came by to say HELLO. hell i miss that bugger.. then sometime afterwards, dean dropped by for a smoke.

i left with the rest at about 12, while dee slacked with dean for a little while. got home half an hr later, watched tv, nagged at some dude over msn. lol* and i kept smiling upon reading a mail sent by a friend..

:)

i had a great saturday.. I wanna see more of Dee and Hanafi in action! the fiesty duo!!! hahaha..!!

took this test dee sent me.

I am a BLUE!

You're blue - the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you - they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue - and patently you!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

+ early me

mom's flight leaves at 830am earlier today. me, dad and id woke up slightly earlier to send her off at the airport. and huhuhaha i took the train from the airport to work and i AM EARLY today.

it does feel good though.. Ohh mother's soo proud of me!! *chuckles*

anyway she delayed her trip back, as expected. she never look forward to going back to work. she dread the idea the moment she lands in Singapore. at 47, i think she's still as cute as ever.

ok i better get back to work.. before they catch me blogging (professionally) away.. :) tsk. see lah..!! its already 850 and alot of them are not in yet!! chet chet chet!!!

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Here's to the dude who once stole my heart and now chucks it aside:-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIZAM!

Friday, December 16, 2005

+ Wise man he is

the journey through the expressway was a difficult one. i lay still at the back of the taxi thinking of what is about to happen. how will she take this. how will the family take it should we no longer have control to survive him. i teared the moment i step foot at NUH. will this be the last? or will his good deeds help him to live through with his loved ones with God's will? dad and myself went straight to the intensive care unit.. but soon to realise that we had to wait for awhile since my grandfather had just been wheeled in, as his bed was seen by the corridor. soon my uncles came, haek, asyraf and my grandma. her lines of old age are soiled in tears despite the glasses on. we stood there waiting.

he had a heart attack again last night and was having great deal of difficulty breathing. after much help from the doctors, he slowly regain his breathing and thats when my uncle received a very daunting phone call that stirred the whole family awake. time then was 1 am.

"...your father has a 50-50 chance of survival.. i suggest that everyone come by to see him while u can. how many siblings altogether?..."

"...i suppose your sister can make it back from overseas. i'm sure she's allowed to, knowing that this is an emergency situation..."

back at the visitors' lounge.. i was watching closely over grandma, who obviously have not had good sleep since the day before. she was telling me how my grandfather was already not in a very good condition before she left for home earlier that day. she said my grandfather started crying at the sight of her and seeing my little cousins there.

in tears, he muttered to my grandma, "...macam mana dgn anak anak nanti... cucu semua macam mana..." - (what about our children.. what about our grandchildren?)

my watch tells me its 330am. we have been waiting nervously in anticipation for the last 2hrs. moments later, the doctor spoke to us and said we are allowed to visit him.

the feeling of seeing my grandfather, the man who deserves my utmost respect..who brought up one of the most impt persons in my life (i.e. my mom) surviving on wires and tubes.. was so unbearable. what triggered off all my defenses at that time was seeing my grandmother cry while holding his hand and touching his face. my grandfather could not open his eyes, but seeing that tear flowing down his sad cheeks assures me that he can hear our cries. his wife's cries.

it took a while before grandmother settled down and the doctors had to do all sorts of medical treatment on him first. we made our way back to the lounge. and waited..

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

+ Reality Me

for those who know me well... i'm such a sucker for reality tv programmes. i dont do going outs that often, i dont visit clubs at all, i look forward to going home after work... and all i wanted to do was to WATCH TV! mostly, REALITY TV! and yeahh.. i'm sooo glad i didnt make plans today... i enjoyed my 2hr Amazing race time with my sister.

all that squealing, annoying cries and short breaths paid off!! the LINZ family WON the Amazing Race!!!! WwoooooHhhh!!!! *boogies*

i love those boys...and their sister megan of course..ahakz.. okay ..you guys, try guessing their ages! i feel like i'm suffering from a serious case of malnutrition...

and i thought Tommy's at least... 22 yrs old.

oh crap..

Monday, December 12, 2005

+ shitzy

so i've not shit for the past 2 days. yep.. i know. not good. heard that advice once upon a time. and so today, i had that shitting urges again after that bowl of yong tau foo and a big cup of avocado juice i had for lunch, which by the way, is an ideal combo to build up that crap in you. but oh i hate shitting in the office toilet! never will i get that satisfaction i need! so i ended up holding on to it till i got home.

as soon as i got home.. i know i had to deflate my tummy and spew the crap out. all i can say is, that was a reaaally long and almost unbearable 20 mins of labour time! urggh!! if i had to struggle tryin to fork my shit out, how the hell am i gonna get that baby out of me later?!!

.. oh God. Please help me.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

+ Endless love

i think my weekend went well. i think. yesterday, i stayed in feelin the sexy rainy saturday.. gosh i enjoyed every minute of it, i tell ya! then later in the evening, i felt that i ought to attend my friend, ath's gig.. and i did. the whole going to a "gig" experience, was indeed.. overwhelming. yah. i've never seen kids below 21 enjoying punk music and shoving each other in the head and trust me having bras for props and letting godknowswhose bra that was flying all over? how's that for musical influence... i was there to see ath's band play, but before that i was really entertained by these kids. really. God i hope that my kids arent of that sort! they're scarier than horror movies.

anyhows, i think the band played great. first time seeing the guys play.. and i'd say i LOVED it. lookin forward to more of them :)

then today, as usual i start off the day by waking up close to 12.. very 'un-girly'? yeah i know.. i think my dad's given up on me. haha. quickly showered and got the clothes ironed for the wedding lunch. NO IDEA who the bride / bridegroom is... i'm going there for free food even though its at choa chu kang. but i think its a relative to my uncle's wife.. my dad's side. oh well foods great but the journey back made me hungry again.. driving through the expressway is enough to burn those calories in me seh! haha.

we got home around 4. quickly i went over to my colleague's place for dinner. it was a pretty quiet sunday, but i had fun. :)

i plead my friend to give me this picture of his niece and nephews looking ouhH! so adOrabLe!! thanks farhan for the pic! *winks

cute kan!!! arrrgghhH!*

Friday, December 09, 2005

Right to be wrong by Joss Stone

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own

Flesh and blood to the bone

See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down too long

I've got to break free

So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong

So just leave me alone..

Thursday, December 08, 2005

+ Bottom's UP!

today's the first day of my gaffer's december leave.. and the team's rather relaxed the entire day. having crazy peeps in the team is darn amusing. laughing all over and pokin fun at each other. and for me, work's a-ok. :) though the best part of today was i had to rush something at the very last minute to arrange for a signing of document after gettin that call from clients. after that more of attending calls from the court, clients, my lovely crazy friends and the guy from pizza hut.

i think i'm sick. i've been following a strict diet as of late. yeah. ok. breakfast: a loaf of bread + one curry puff + 1.5 litres of Evian water. lunch: chicken macaroni soup (*slurp) + avocado juice + bunch of cut fruits or salad + 1.5 litres of Evian. dinner: rice + lizard soup (with chilli padi) + fried earthworms + 5 glasses of water.

NICE~

later after work, i met up with D. and we head down to coffee bean along boat quay. while the lost princesses were seen sipping the latte and 2 cups of water (looks at D).. all of a sudden rays of light were seen flashing from all angles. we panicked! we freaked! i almost fall of my seat! then suddenly, something so magical! so extraordinaire! so! so! hawwt appeared through those doors. "ohh.. my.... God...." i muttered. the radio in my head's blasting:

"Sex BOMB Sex BOMB! You're my sex BOMB!!"

yup. as expected, the two goons smiled to themselves like 2 goats high on weed. boy, wasnt that a wonderful feelin, D?? haha..

oh well. moving on....

we then head home half past 7. the moment i step foot in my house, i know i had something urgent to attend to. i sprinted to the room... grabbed the towel, with my eyeballs out and my hands firmly gripping my smashing parts, i dashed to the toilet.

it was a close fight! yes it was. but i win hands down.. :) yes... i landed smoothly on that toilet seat with no bumps.. then my radio played a familiar tune.

"What a feeling! bein's believin'! I can't have it all, now I'm dancin' for my life...

Take your passion, and make it happen! Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life.."

uh-huh. the soundtrack from the movie Flashdance. Great song.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

+ Missing you

A long time friend of mine passed away last saturday. the group of us just got to know of it earlier today. the message sent heaps of shockwave surging through all of us, leaving us trembling in sadness and remorse. thinkin of her made me reminisce abt the good times we shared and how easy for her to laugh at the silly jokes we make back in sec school. as far as i know, she's evidently a humble and kindhearted person. one you can really depend on. during our visit earlier today, true enough its hard for us... its hard for me.. to accept. nonetheless my heart is at ease knowing that her parents are doing well despite of their loss. and i wish them well. may she rest in peace and my prayers will forever be with her. we'll be missing her terribly. Al-Fatiha.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

+ ANTS IN MY PANTS

i hope that i no longer have any more saturdays to do - the penalties for coming in late to work . can't believe this is working. that i actually "learned my lesson". but seriously, i dont mind coming in on saturdays (when i have to i.e.) but to be asked to do other people's assignments or handle their work is ridiculous. i irk at the thought of it. guess you just have to accept the cons of working in a big law firm if you just wanna get away with things / get that year end bonus you've yearned for since 1975.

i've thought about leaving yes. because of these rules and regulations which i most certainly would LOVE to breach. like screw them and wear TSHIRT AND JEANS for the entire week! or wear my lime green flip flops with a black outfit for a meeting. but when i think about the environment i'm at and the people in my team, i most definitely enjoy my work. enjoy workin with them that is. i think i ought to be grateful for that. worry less about the people who constantly live their lives by the Rules.

...

its sunday and already i'm talking about work. shit.

i decided to hang out with my friends last night. was nice sitting and talking to my friend, when i just rememebered about my ice-cream cup next to me, with the last remains of my green tea flavored ice-cream to be seen covered with a colony of ants. arrrgghh!!! GROSSNESS!!

i quickly got up and acted woman. with small quick flaps of the hands and doing chagalaga with stamping of my feet, i freaked. thank goodness i entertained only a group of matz and minahz seated nearby and not the entire slackers at Taka. i swear they think i'm 15. luckily my friend was there to ease my embarrassment after that impromptu performance. we scrammed after that and head down to meet di and angie.

yup. i had fun. anyone free to slack? lemme know. its a hobby of mine i hardly resist!

just received an email from a friend from afar. after attending Michael Buble's concert and being an all time fan of JUST FOR LAUGHS, i just know that i dig canadian humor.

"Well how's the weekend? For me i've just been doin the work thing,it snowed last night 3 inches almost could'nt find my car in the morning! o ya it's cold as hell,really lookin forward to my trip :) We'll have to do a duet when i arrive and u can pick the toon,I'm telling ya we'll be the next sonny and cher,we can rercord a cd and release it in a month or so, we'll be rich..! "

Babe... i've got you babe..!

whahahaha!!

can't wait for his arrival next month. hell its gonna be awkwardly fun. just like having ants in my pants.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

+ Hangin up on you..

Some girl called my house. Thought it was another of my sister's friends. Apparently not.

Caller: Uh...hello?

Me: Yah hello.

Caller: Can i speak to Siti Norhayati please?

Me: Oh she's not around. She's overseas now.

Caller: Oh.. overseas. ah.. are u a family member?

Me: ??!! - erm.. yes, i'm her daughter

Caller: i see.. so you her daughter ha.. how old are u?

Me: ?? - erm, i'm twenty one.

Caller: oh i'm actually calling for starhub. we have a pomotion for new CableTV and Maxonline subscribers. We are giving free Toshiba Flat Screen TV for new subscribers to CableTV. (and something else for Maxonline, cant remember what crap she said)

Me: oh. kay.

Caller: so.. do u have cableTV or Maxonline?

Me: Yah.

Caller: so do u want to subscribe? because its this pomotion is for new subscribers.. yaa..

Me: uh.. no.

Caller: are u interested in the flat screen tv?

Me: no..?

Caller: oh k. erm thank you then. bye.

Me: oh.kay.

it was only minutes after i hang up that i realised someone from starhub called regarding a promotion. i thought i was in a skit and the other 'actor' is just naturally not that good with remembering her lines.

pssstt!

P.S. HAPPY 18TH BIRDDAY HAEKAL!!!! Wooo!!! YOU'RE ALMOST THERE BRO!!! HOPE YOU LIKE THE TOPS! (and i will get you fresh new boxers soon...fret not)

i think i'm gonna hang out with my friends afterwards. i did angsana tree last week. i'd probably do the christmas tree later. hopefully the branches are strong enough. i gained 0.3 kg. sigh.. and to think i got delighted thinking i gained 3kg more. tsk.. me and my hallucinated mind.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Today is the world's AIDS day. Life is precious. Think of your loved ones around you. Wear a condom (and hope it helps) if you must. Better still, just dont do sex with someone you got to know an hour earlier. Thats just weird.